The-diary-of-a-caretaker

1st May (May Day)
04:39 AM
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Dear Diary,
I know it is seriously unusual for a caretaker to record his life day by day but, this isn't that at all. It is more like... ideas/plans I have throughout the day. Or maybe a type of alibi to prove where I am at any given time. (Not that I'm suggesting anything). No-one is at school today. So, as usual, I'm on my own, but this time there are no blasted kids to get in my way. This has given me a chance to really explore the place I work and have lived my life since the 'incident'. It's the only place I feel safe these days anyway. I've been suprisingly busy today. Makes a change really. I've been rigging up the CCTV's to the male and female toilets to "prevent students smoking" as I am told. Really I do it because it's nice to see into the everyday activities of a nice fresh schoolkid. This may sound weird but, you know, people are into all kinds of weird shit these days. Found something quite interesting in the teacher's lounge too. some very nice magazines that were suspiciously next to the sugar bowl. And obviously I took them away for further examination. I also found some weird stuff in their fridge too. I don't know what they have for their lunch in there but there were some strangely unidentifiable frozen "objects". Not sure what they were but decided not to find out in case they attacked me or something.
Anyway must be off as I have a lot of "cleaning" to do before the kids start back at the school tomorrow.
Eddie

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Continued...
(Monday 1st May)
21:46 PM
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I've been extremely busy since I last spoke to you.I have rigged up the CCTV camera's to all toilet and changing rooms.And they are capable of seeing everything, and zooming in. ( not that it is important that they have to do that.)They will be great to try out on the kids... who smoke.I can't say it was boring or anything due to my life being a lonely place, as I am a mute.This I am not ashamed of, however the incident that caused me to be like this is extremely shameful. And I would rather not discuse to anyone or anything for my whole life, I have anyways avoided the question.That's the whole reason I got Brian due to the fact of me not being able to communicate with people, I recieved a Giant African Snail; Brian.Anyway, as I was just about to say before I digressed.
The unidentified frozen object are still yet to be identified, ( I had to go back for them, they had been on my mind ever since I came across them.),I have 2 options- 1.I could ask my father(also the headteacher of this school)as soon as he arrives in tomorrow morning to return back after the 3 day weekend.
2.Or, I could investigate them myself as I have all the equipment to do so, and I don't know how my father will react to me being 'nosey'?
The magazines will come in useful later when I'm " relaxing ".For dinner I found left over spaghetti in the bottom of the pan, which was provided for the kids from Friday. But if I re-heat it, it should be good enough for me to eat for dinner.
I have to dash, the receptionist is here earlier than excepted.
Eddie

3rd May 06
6:38 PM
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I apologise for my absents yesterday, as I was to busy with all the children to realise that I hadn't writen. However, the receptionist came round earlier than excepted yesterday, due to this, I couldn't get the rest of my jobs done that were writen down.However that's the reason whereas I didn't write on tuesday, she occupied my time for to long.
However, yesterday the kids were back. In a way, it was a good thing. However, on the other hand it wasn't the best thing in the world, due to my 'incident' from when I was a child of that age.It still effects me now when I am around children the same age as I was when it happened.
As I was saying, It was a good thing due to having a chance to try out the camera's, and just as you know they are 'Amazing'... the camera's I mean.
As I said before, the mazagine's haven't been used yet as I haven't had a oppotunity to use them.
The unidentified freezen objects were infact 'pig hearts', so I shortly returned them back to there rightful homes. And my father wasn't to no anything of it, or Mrs Smith the science teacher.
My stomach was NOT the best it has ever been this morning as, I ate something from the lunch hall, with I believe to be spaghetti, but now Im not 100% sure.Im alrite now though, I have a good emunity to freaky food stuffs.
Anyways, Im going out for dinner with the librarian.
Take care,
Eddie

4th May 06
18:43 PM
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I have had the worst day of my life, well, the second worst day of my life. I think, I saw a girl, but not just any girl, the girl from the church.
You see, I knew I couldn't keep lieing and not saying anything about the incident in the whole of this diary. However I will tell you everything.
Everything that happened to me, the thing that made me a mute.
When I was little, about 13 years of age. I was a good little boy, people all knew who I was, I was classed as " a teacher pet" but I had so many friends and no-one wanted to hurt me. Until one day in the middle of winter,and as per usual, on sundays I would go to Church and pray, take confession etc.. However, this sunday wasn't quite right? I wondered into the church and there was onli about 3 people in there, for our little town, there was usually about 53 people in there, so I found it a little strange. In there was a girl, about 13/14 years old, blonde hair, blue eyes, very pretty little girl .Anyways not questioning a thing, I went in the confession box when the priest would usually be sat opposite. But not today, after about 5 minutes, there was a knock on the door of the box, I said" Im sorry but Im using this one at the moment? " and they continued knocking constantly, so I open the door ajar and all I saw was the priest, suddenly, he rammed me against the side of the box, and began to pull my trousers down.I black-out and couldn't remember much else. But I was raped. A while later, after screaming so much my throat had it's own pulse. He turned to me and said " You know you have to be quiet in a church, it's disrespectful ", nd he cut my tongue out.A day or so later the police found me naked in a skip.
My family ad friend never treated me the same again. I had suddenly seen the world in different eyes. I had lost my childhood. It was awful.
Thats the reason why I like to watch kids, because when I was younger I couldn't be all calm and laughing all the time . there was nothing I found funny.

Anyways this brings up to many memories.
Eddie

5th May 06
12:57Pm
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Every memory of anything is suddenly coming back to me. Was this because I was writing it all down.

I got told off today, yet it was so funny, due to me messing with the science teachers pig heart frozen identified objects. The libarian Mrs. Munrow and the receptionist Mrs. Gorwick where talking today ,thankfully, I was not a topic of conversation.Yes if you haven't already guessed Mrs. Munrow and me and Mrs. Gorwick are a couple. They both just don't no it yet. And hopefully they wont as Im having to much.. .. "fun!" lets say.
And with both I get double the pleasure. I mean.. it doesn't mean. Its a private thing going on so, dont say anything.
Normal things happen at school today except i swear that a lad came on to me. I realli enjoyed it. Sometimes I think Im strange, sometimes I think Im mad, but to be honested I enjoy it all so much.
Talk more later
Eddie

17th May 2006
3:38 PM
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Police have been in the school for the past couple of days are one of the child said that a strange camera was following them when they were getting changed, soI have spent the last couple of weeks, well days, thinking of great come back so they don't fire me.
Firstly, The camera's dont allow me to see the child its just so that there are no problem when there are no child in there , the camera are sensitive and follow peoples body heat.
Now personally, I thought it was a great come back and the camera issue was not a problem after that.
Ofsted Inspection was also being done and thankfully we passed. I've had to keep low for a wait and that is my main reason for no writing daily in this.
Today, I had a bad day due to the children, when the children in the halls look at me I feel as though they are my friends, except they don't talk to me , they give me bad looks and it's not a nice thing. I just wish they would get to know me and trust me. In that way, I dont mind them coming round to mine after school except I dont think they see it in that way.
Anyway, theres a Swimming Gala tomorrow and I have to clean the pool, and fill it up. I cant wait to see the children ... swim. Obviously swim, its just they wont be wearing a lot of cloths.
Talk tomorrow, unless Im not busy later on.
Eddie